Hey guys. Lately, I haven't been able to work out for two reasons. I don't have much time anymore. With work, and all of our extra curriculars (choir for me, my husband's drug/alcohol recovery meetings, karate for both kids and ballet for our daughter) it all leaves little time for me to get workouts in. I have three days a week where I can and I have, until recently. My new job at Panera Bread is crazy. I worked for them before at a different location in a different city. Working at this Panera Bread, I'm learning that the managers at the one I worked at before ran a very tight ship. The one I work at now is so understaffed, which means that we don't get breaks. Which means I haven't been eating much during the day because I simply can't. I see other employees eating in the back, which is not only a sanitation violation, but also, I'm not exactly sure they're paying for the food they're eating, so it could also be the managers letting the people get away with stealing. Anyway, not eating has led to me losing weight that my body can't afford to lose if I'm not eating to maintain my weight and with my hypothyroidism, well, losing that weight has made my thyroid hormone levels go out of wack. I went from my healthy average of 110 pounds to 104.2. My managers know about my health issues and they still won't let me take a break. There are so many things this Panera Bread location is violating. I feel like I need to make an HR complaint, but I also want to remain completely anonymous. I'm not sure I trust that that can happen. I also don't want to quit because I am autistic and going through the job seeking and interviewing process is stress I almost can't handle without having mental breakdowns. I feel trapped in my job. I'm starving every day, working my butt off covering for the pathetic people who call out of work every other day and never get fired for it. Why is it that the hardworking, honest people in American society always get screwed over the most? We are the ones who truly deserve more, yet we're not getting it. I'm making only $14 an hour. This is straight bullsh*t.

Anyway, so these have been my struggles lately and the reasons I can't afford to be burning calories. I'll start exercising again when this all gets resolved.